Trapped In The Margins

She hurt me more than I can bear

Her cold tired eyes embracing every inch of my body

Her hands, the softest I’ve ever held 

So delicate for someone with so many scars 

Reaching out to touch her felt like a dream

But she never really opened up to me

Overextending myself for someone that wouldn’t move

Falling faster than ever before

I crashed before I even realized what happened

She extended her hand and said never lose that caring heart of yours. 

The feelings came in waves – lust, joy, anger, sadness

There are no feelings now just a person obsessed with chasing phantoms. 

Tripping on what was and what will never be 

I promised to let her go 

But I find myself in the same place I was in months ago.