Trapped In The Margins

I want to peel my skin off

So I won’t be reminded of you

I want to hide so the world won’t see my shame

I want the ground to swallow me whole

So I can disappear

But none of that can happen

I have to look in your eyes every day

And not want to gouge them out with a knife

I have to smile and be nice

Because that’s what good women do

I have to pretend like I don’t hate you

When you are the last person on earth that I want to see

I have to force myself to not react when you touch me

But now you crossed a line

I will always pay the price

And you will remain untouchable