Trapped In The Margins

I’ve been crying lately at the most seemingly random times.

This healing journey is no joke.

Did you know that you have to feel your feelings and not rationalize them away?

I sure didn’t.

Now, a wave of emotion hits me and I crumble where I stand.

Feeling negative emotions after being hurt feels like putting alcohol on a deep wound.

It’s a pain that I have wished on my worst enemy and that enemy was myself.

I doomed myself to a lifetime of pain

Because I refused to acknowledge anything that happened in the past.

Now, I accept those memories with everything they have to offer.

The pain, the joy, the anger, the lust, the love, the hate.

I accept it all.