Growing Pains
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I don’t think that I’m eloquent enough to capture all of the emotions that occur when someone you know dies. I’ve tried for the past seventeen years to understand my own grief and begin to understand the way in which grief impacts others. Needless to say, I have failed on both counts. Something that I
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Rise Against is a punk rock band from Chicago – a point that they gladly recall at their show in Asbury Park back in July 2021. The lead vocalist Tim McIlrath occasionally stopped to speak to the crowd about all the injustices in the world. I, one of very few Black fans, gesture to the
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I’m about five years too late with this post but it’s taken about that long to begin to process my own trauma around the pandemic. I see that the world has decided to collectively move on from the lockdown days of the early pandemic. Honestly, it never felt appropriate to comment on what was happening
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I’m holding onto a website that I’ve been using since I was 17. I’m in my thirties now. It’s actually crazy to think that I’m so egotistical that I need to stay on an app that does not serve me. It’s broken and trashy. I hate it. I want to give up what no longer
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January Winter doesn’t feel the same anymore. I miss the bitter cold Winters of my youth. The ones where the cold would sink into one’s bones. It physically hurt to breathe. Those are the winters that I miss. Because I could make an excuse for the tears in my eyes. Tears of sadness, frustration, anger.
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I’ve been crying lately at the most seemingly random times. This healing journey is no joke. Did you know that you have to feel your feelings and not rationalize them away? I sure didn’t. Now, a wave of emotion hits me and I crumble where I stand. Feeling negative emotions after being hurt feels like
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It feels like I’ve been stuck in a loop for the past five years when it comes to working. I’ve had several different jobs over the years, some more stable than others. Each was a learning experience and all were traumatic in their own ways. I decided to end this cycle of crappy job situations
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The title of this may seem contradictory to the masses, but I know that there are a select few that will understand what I mean. I will elaborate for those that do not. I identify as a black woman and I also identify as a black person. Still confused? Let’s break this down. I was
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*This post was originally written on July 26th, 2021* Happiness has always eluded me. I always felt like I had to be more than who I was. I was never enough. I never felt pretty enough, smart enough, fast enough, talented enough. The opposite was also true. I was too much. I was too loud,
Trapped In The Margins 