• freedom (divorce)

    I have so much freedom now that we’ve severed ties. Ties that I thought would bind me to a world that divides. Divides that have split me open and scattered me across continents. My love is no longer tethered to one person for eternity. I’m opening myself to the possibilities. Who knew that a divorce…

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  • a low point.

    Playing a dangerous game Where my greatest sacrifice is my life. I acted like the lamb being led to slaughter. Making men feel empowered. Using their rage to feel something. His hands around my neck. The pressure was too much. It ended before it even began. His facade began to crack. His aggression seeped through.…

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  • crisis.

    It is a cruel thing. It speeds everything up. Everything becomes of utmost importance. There’s too much to think about  Yet too little time. But you must act. Because everything falls apart when you don’t. But you can’t do anything. Paralyzed by fear. Tears become an ocean. Thoughts become heavy. Like cinder blocks tied to…

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  • moonlit lover

    The moon knew before I did How I really felt about him. Casting him in its light I saw something that I’ve never seen before I saw the truth in its rarest form I saw a man so passionate about something that it radiated from his skin His words were filled with wonder and awe…

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  • bitter yet sweet.

    There’s a bittersweet feeling that fills my chest. My lungs collapse and I feel every single breath. It’s the words of a man who claims to be a lover. A lover that I don’t want. A lover that I need. His proposition terrifies me. It hasn’t even been a month since my forever love fell…

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  • haiku 1a.

    I seek comfort in A garden that will not grow A place where love dies.

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  • voicemail

    A mistake from the past has returned to haunt me. And you’re the one I want to turn to. The one that could make things right with their presence. I searched for something to ground me. The voicemail I refuse to delete. Your voice was full of concern or so I thought. Really it was…

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  • a creation story.

    I didn’t like what I created. I was given the gift of another’s heart But I decided to chip away at it slowly. Insecurities permeated every facet of my being. All I could do was leave. But I couldn’t. So I poured the poison filling my mind into the heart of my love. He stood…

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  • January

    The “love of my life” walked out on me. During a moment of great need. The coward. Protecting himself was always his strong suit. I never mattered anyway. Another man tiptoed into my life. But he was an imperfect copy of my love. There were only pieces of what made me fall in love with…

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  • bargain.

    I want to go back to the beginning. Back to when things were new. Every experience felt like paradise. I was consumed by the joy of the moment You were truly an escape. A love to get lost in and with. The fantasy of a mundane life. The person I wanted to come home to…

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