Trapped In The Margins

I started the year with a promise to myself.

One I could only dare whisper because I feared that the walls would hear.

I found the thing I needed to fulfill my deepest desire.

But it crumbled as soon as I touched it.

It quickly turned to dust.

Rage built up in my body, bubbling beneath the surface.

I needed something, anything to burn.

I found someone.

But screwed up by falling in love.

I thought I could lose the pain by being in love.

Yet the pain grew until I couldn’t handle it anymore.

I want to find a way out of the pain.

I want to send my love far away.

I don’t want to lose the one person that means the world to me.

But I’ve filled both of our minds with doubt.

I’ve written countless poems in an attempt to push him away.

And yet, he pulled me closer.

The time to spiral has finally come to an end.