Trapped In The Margins

Every year, I have the same New Year’s Resolutions – lose weight, post more frequently on my website, learn to cook, etc. I have decided to break with tradition and say goodbye to New Year’s Resolutions. It’s easy to get caught up in the promise of a new year, especially with capitalism selling us the things that we need to reach our maximum potential. I no longer want to create more content. I want to create better content for no one other than myself. Posting every day didn’t make a better writer or poet. It led to burnout. I was mining pain for posts every single day instead of dealing with the trauma. I no longer want to tap into those painful experiences in order to feel seen on the Internet.

I want my website to be a space for the peace and the growth that I currently feel in my life. This chaotic time of omicron surging across the country mirrors the uncertainty that March 2020 had. The world is chaotic enough and I no longer plan on adding to that chaos. I always want this space to be a reflection of where I am in life and this is where I am. I’m in a place where being kind to myself is the most radical form of self-care and healing that I can offer myself.

I hope that my future posts still resonate with those that follow me but I understand if you unfollow since you signed up for my emotionally charged content. Don’t worry. I still have my sad moments and they will be reflected here, but I also want to give myself the opportunity to post happy content as well. I fear that my content was too one-sided and lacked nuance/emotional depth. Balance is a never-ending battle for me, but I’m finally starting to make some progress.

Finally, I want to thank everyone that has read my writing over the past eight years. It’s been a crazy ride since I posted my first piece on this account. I hope to see this account reach more milestones as it heads to double digits. I don’t know what the next two years will bring, but I’m happy to bring you all along for the ride.