Growing Pains
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Today is the first anniversary of the Capitol riot. It’s also the one year anniversary of when I could have lost the person that means the most to me in this world. My life was completely different a year ago. I had been engaged for almost two months and I was recovering from an emergency
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Every year, I have the same New Year’s Resolutions – lose weight, post more frequently on my website, learn to cook, etc. I have decided to break with tradition and say goodbye to New Year’s Resolutions. It’s easy to get caught up in the promise of a new year, especially with capitalism selling us the
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I didn’t like what I created. I was given the gift of another’s heart But I decided to chip away at it slowly. Insecurities permeated every facet of my being. All I could do was leave. But I couldn’t. So I poured the poison filling my mind into the heart of my love. He stood
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The “love of my life” walked out on me. During a moment of great need. The coward. Protecting himself was always his strong suit. I never mattered anyway. Another man tiptoed into my life. But he was an imperfect copy of my love. There were only pieces of what made me fall in love with
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I want to go back to the beginning. Back to when things were new. Every experience felt like paradise. I was consumed by the joy of the moment You were truly an escape. A love to get lost in and with. The fantasy of a mundane life. The person I wanted to come home to
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I loved you from the day I met you And that was my fault. I was running from a phantom Of a person I never really knew. I thought that this could be my tabula rasa. Prayed for a clean slate. Experienced new things. The highs were too great. I couldn’t handle the pressure. Things
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You are someone I can’t understand. Your thoughts go to places where I’m not sure even you can follow. Forgetting the simplest of tasks. Disassociation never looked so good.
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Today is January 1, 2021 and the word of the day from Merriam-Webster is reprise. Definition: a recurrence, renewal, or resumption of an action The past few days of my life have felt ~different~ I owe this to the love of my life. He sat me down one day while I was spiraling and made
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I started the year with a promise to myself. One I could only dare whisper because I feared that the walls would hear. I found the thing I needed to fulfill my deepest desire. But it crumbled as soon as I touched it. It quickly turned to dust. Rage built up in my body, bubbling
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Destruction was coursing through my veins. I had to do something to take the pressure away. I had to find someone, anyone. There were bridges to be burned. Cities to be razed. I started playing the game. Increasingly bored by every player. Except one. I wanted him to be my Ides of March. I wanted
Trapped In The Margins 